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Post by Deleted on Feb 17, 2020 18:57:25 GMT
Everything has been pretty good for me in life lately because I know with all my current therapies, that the only thing I can manage is my own self, emotions and thoughts. I have a whole different mind about other human beings as well as love and romance, family and friends. In fact, I do feel the necessity to socialize in person with others too and to communicate with other human beings. For example, my Scottish friend today has been chatting to me on the bus and I haven't minded it because it's about coffee and tea, which does interest me and not some idle chitchat that put me ill at ease like some native French speakers over here who will endlessly chat with you if you don't tell them no! I have responded with "No, I don't wanna chat" to a female passenger waiting for the bus with me and she's seemed like a chatty cathy to me. But I'm not hassled by her the moment after because it's useless to be triggered after the moment. I'm just having a nap the afternoon because I've had a bad night last night, been sleeping very few hours and have gone to the bathroom often, so I'm resting to catch up on sleep with audio therapy and aroma therapy.
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Post by Deleted on Feb 18, 2020 19:44:03 GMT
I think I'm still not into relationships at all. I've just broken up with my ex this morning, a few hours ago, feeling nothing but happiness and freedom. I don't think I can ever be truly free and blissful with a romantic partner in life. It simply doesn't suit my lifestyle. I feel tied down to the person and relationship, stressed out and overwhelmed by it. Plus, I'm so self-absorbed that I caring about others than myself is tedious and exhausting for me personally. I have OCD, autism and BPD, which don't help with romantic relationships. Just binging a new supernatural Chinese tv show today, undecided as to what yet. Be browsing my dramalist.com to settle on one to binge.
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Post by Deleted on Feb 19, 2020 20:13:58 GMT
I'm a lot less stressed out after ending my relationship with my ex, feeling freer and happier than ever single. Anyways, this morning after therapy, I've been shopping around after lunching out on a Lebanese pizza with a lemon iced tea today, a lavender-chamomile room spray at Winners which I've sprayed all over my bed sheets, blanket and pillow. I've discovered that the best way to fight mental health issues is truly mindfulness, to be aware about your current surroundings and to be focused wholly and fully on your present moment. Been doing trauma therapy and a socializing and communication course as well as other treatments, I'm coping a lot better with everything in my life currently. Nothing has bothered my perfect peace and bliss for 2-3 months in a row presently. I feel so grateful to be alive today.
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Post by Deleted on Feb 20, 2020 18:49:34 GMT
I'm feeling perfectly free and blissful today to be alive. I've been sipping with a new Agatha Christie book at my usual coffee shop this morning, an Earl grey with honey and cream tea and a dark roast coffee. I'm just browsing my favorite jewelry site : Pilgrim.net planning my next purchase which will be either a silver ring or some silver or gold earrings, not sure what piece I want from them yet with aroma therapy and audio therapy as self-care today.
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Post by Deleted on Feb 21, 2020 19:59:12 GMT
I've been in perfect shape both mentally and physically lately. Just making an affiliate button for my general forum and binging an old Chinese time-travel reverse harem drama obsession : "Dreaming back to the Qing Dynasty". It's filled with romance, suspense and good-looking adult men in the series. I've seen it for the nth time already at the present.
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Post by Deleted on Feb 22, 2020 18:25:44 GMT
I'm having an awful migraine and a dizzy spell hammering down on me today, but it's not bothering at all because I'm focused wholly and fully on other things currently, which is my relaxing and comforting "campfire" soundtrack on my mindfulness app on my phone called "Relax Melodies" and my lavender, eucalyptus and rosemary scents all over my room and I'm napping away this afternoon and having an early night for self-care today.
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Post by Deleted on Feb 23, 2020 19:23:35 GMT
Feeling relieved today from my headache and dizziness, which has been lasting for over 48 hours. I've had a shower and hair wash this morning after sipping my coffee and tea. It's a beautiful, sunny and clear blue sky today and I've gone out to take some fresh air too and to do nature contemplation at my favorite spot in the little by the riverside by my home. Just perfect today and I'm beginning to appreciate chatting with perfect strangers even because they are human beings too, thence dangers and threats to my life are my mind's tricking me into feeling and thinking about them this way. I've stopped looking at them with a negative light currently and I can even enjoy friendship and others' company and have been starting to feel lonely with just myself in my world currently. Been catching up in person with a college mate this morning and I've had a pleasant chat with him, the one who's in love with me and he's happy that I've resumed my friendship with him. He's treated me to my coffee, tea and a nibble today. It's been a pleasant morning, I've had a lift from him in his Lexus SUV, without feeling in danger or threatened with a person from the opposite sex. Thence, I'm ready to enjoy every moment in my life currently. This afternoon, just idling online mindlessly with audio therapy and aroma therapy as usual after posting.
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Post by Deleted on Feb 24, 2020 19:33:22 GMT
Quitting 2 forums that's been too toxic for me with political and social strife has done me good today. I feel relieved to not associate myself anymore with those Drama Queens. I don't understand why argue and hold it against anyone online? It's ridiculous and laughable and very petty to me. I could care less about online happenings. It doesn't affect my current mood irl and why should it? In person too, I've realized what being human means : to interact with others peacefully and harmoniously. I'm doing zoo therapy daily, nature meditation once a day after coffee and tea with exposure therapy whilst going out for coffee and tea. I've figured that I love chitchatting too. I've said hi to my fellow female bus passenger and my neighbors, dog owners and taking pictures with them, petting them and played with them too. I've even walked a dog with it's leash today. Generally pet owners are very nice and love others gushing over their pets. I've never met any pet owner who doesn't like sharing about their pets with others.
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Post by Deleted on Feb 25, 2020 19:19:26 GMT
I'm fully pumped up today after being sick for 2 days. But I'm ok NOW, and that's what matters. I've joined a new discord server and an rp forum, run by my 2 friends. I'm rping online or reading "The ABC Murders" by Agatha Christie to enjoy my afternoon and evening before retiring to bed early with aroma therapy and music therapy.
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