So been hammered down by a heavy migraine, dizzy spell and feeling like throwing up for 2 days. Maybe it has to do with the weather’s ups and downs and the wind chills. My head is pretty sensitive to weather and seasons changes and I have sad (season affective disorder, feeling depressed starting in the cold and dark days so. I have a daylight lamp on my bedside for it though m. It really helps with it too! It cost like a good 6 or 7 hundred bucks, but quite worth it as I’ve been using it for 12 years and not broken, so it’s pretty cheap I guess m, recommended by my earlier therapist. So ya and I’ve been sniffing a strong lavender vanilla scent to soothe my headache down and had 2 extra strong Advil for it. Feeling a lot better today, not thrown up any food or drinks today so far. My health is pretty poorly in autumn and winter but that’s just life!
My headache is finally gone after sleeping for about 27 hours in 3 days, having only soups and liquids. I feel so relieved that nothing is bothering me. But I’ve been looking after myself these days, doing aroma therapy and meditating on spa music and plunging myself into reading. Time heals though. I’ve had 2 extra strong Advil to soothe it down and been laying down and stuff these 3 days. But today, I’m top shape body and mind, having on my “EOS” sweet mint lip balm. I’ve had lunch on a cheese toasties and iced mocha chino with chocolate sprinkles on top and whipped cream. I feel ok today. Will be meditating on spa music and doing aroma therapy and reading “3rd girl” by Agatha Christie. Looking up today.
I think it’s just my luck lately for 9 days I haven’t met anyone on the streets. Guess it has to do with the timing. I either wake up very early in the morning or after 10 am. By then everyone has gone to work or it’s too early for them to be out. To keep my total peace and quiet whilst enjoying my iced coffee and tea or juice, I think I’ll keep going out at these hours to avoid bumping into anyone. And I’m taking another bus line where the bus drivers are all meek and quiet, just as I love it? Love my life for the moment. Hopefully it stays that way forever because a mere greeting will make me jump so. But I’m having a basic communication and socializing course with my therapist to equip myself with those skills that are important to have. T says I have PTSD from my dad’s abuse and my elementary classmates’ racial bullying. But I’m doing trauma therapy where I’m disclosing everything to my t currently and it’s healing me already. All that there’s left for me is grieving for it and having closure for every trauma I’ve been through so far. But yeah, today is great because my period is almost gone and headache also, it’s taken 3 extra strong Advil and 30+ hours sleep for 3 days straight to go away. To say the least I’m relieved today!
Been ok for the most part lately, even in social situations. I’ve even chatted with some old acquaintances today, finding it rather pleasant. My period has definitely stopped, so have my headache and dizziness completely gone away! And although a rainy day today, the weather after a hot and humid day yesterday is back to normal. It’s lots to celebrate today and feel grateful for!
Why humans have a body and mind? This has been bugging me for a while, but no longer because I’ve found my answer to it. There’s only 1 purpose and meaning to my life : to enjoy everyone and everything in it. To embrace it and accept it as it is. So long as you keep these goals in mind, you’ll be happy for life. Each moment in life is to be enjoyed, seized and embraced. Thence, I’m no longer a wanderer in life. I’m 100% aware about these in life currently. This is mindfulness’s true inner power because happiness is found within you and each person is unique. Understanding how my mind and body work has empowered me so much that I feel like nothing could ruin my day!
I’m back to my normal self today, completely recovered from my light discharge after my period and my 4 days dizziness and headache. I can finally browse without hindrances today. Guess it’s just my luck that absolutely no one on the road to and from my coffee shop has spoken to me. Bus drivers and cashiers are discreet and fast so I can actually sip my iced cappuccino or Frappuccino on their indoor terrace every morning. The afternoon be binging “Meteor Garden 2018” or playing “Mario Kart Tour”, not sure yet. The new Mario Kart free for mobiles looks fun to play and is 3D!
Everything is perfect in life lately, nobody on the road has talked to me at all for over 2 weeks. I’m completely at peace currently and every moment in my life. Thence mindfulness is to see your life as a transitory step to something better and why don’t you mind what’s happy in the moment? I’ve enjoyed an iced coffee this morning and an orange juice for 1.15$CAD. I’ve spent less than 4$ today and this is my daily budget. I’m also keeping a “positivity journal” and it’s helping me stay rooted in my happiness really. In 6 days, it’s my birthday!
For 2 weeks at the current, I haven’t bumped into anyone at all while going and coming back from my usual coffee shop. Guess it’s my licky streak! Hoping and praying it stays that way for life. I really can’t deal with other human beings for now. Been up since about 4h30 am, but had 2-3 hours nap this morning to catch up on my sleep. Feeling good today. Am up for nothing but having tea for lunch and meditating on natural sounds. Too lazy to do anything else today. Having a most quiet fortnight lately.
Life has been so serene lately, that my depression, stress and anxiety are gone for now anyways. I’m just enjoying the moment, having nothing on mind but peace itself. My purpose in life is to live it all no matter what. And to go on with myball. That much I’ve understood about life. Life’s all about the choices I am making, I’m the ultimate judge in my life and my emotions and thoughts. I’m not letting lead me around the nose anymore. Next you feel like you’re hanging on one thread, stop and breathe for a moment. Doesn’t it feel great to be breathing fresh air? Inhale and exhale for 5 seconds in your life. This is a mindfulness exercise I’ve learnt in therapy this week and can be done anytime, anywhere!
Life has been absolutely perfect, no external disturbances from anyone for over 2 weeks. No period on my birthday or any upcoming holidays. Been shopping for a Pandora bangle and a Pandora pink butterfly lucky charm. I’ve paid for the bangle, mum the charm. I’m wearing my Godspeed charm too. Whenever I’m a little down or low in mood, be looking at my Pandora charms and be feeling a lot better. Guess they work for me personally. I love Pandora!
Everything has quieted down in life for me so far, no one has bothered me again today. I’m loving it! I hope for my birthday, everything shall be most quiet and peaceful. Omg, been meditating on ocean waves sounds in complete darkness with aroma therapy. It’s like going always being at the beach, feeling the ocean wind on my body and bathing in the ocean. Been sleeping a lot better too than ever before. In the morning, I’m usually sipping a hot coffee and a fruit juice. In the afternoon, meditating and doing aroma therapy. I’m completely blissful and peaceful in life currently.
I’m having as I’ve surmised, a most perfect birthday. I’ve had a free Starbucks iced pumpkin latte for my birthday and the staff there have all wished me a happy birthday. Lunching out with a friend today to celebrate it. Absolutely nobody has been intruding upon my perfect peace and routine lately. Feeling so blessed and blissful to be alive and breathing! I’ve treated myself to my favourite Burt’s Bees strawberry lip balm too. Am currently sipping my rose hips and hibiscus Kombucha complexion alone on their bistro terrace, what a lovely day! Planning to buy myself the jasmine and rose pillow and blanket mist for my aroma therapy. I’ve gone back to bed soon after posting, thence I’ve had in all 9 hours sleep last night!
Life has been absolutely perfect for 3 weeks currently, hope it stays that way. Absolutely nobody has been disturbing my perfect peace and quiet. I think it’s because I tend to avoid others at all costs and my usual coffee shop has a most discreet and professional service staff so. Been doing aroma therapy and music therapy on a new Hugo Boss perfume which has been given time as s birthday present yesterday. Smells so sweet and strong! Life is at present just to my liking! Also loving my Burt’s Bees strawberry lip balm, still better than EOS!
I’ve been completely fine for me lately, can’t complain about my most perfect peace and quiet. My daily routine : at 7-8 am, I go out to have my iced coffee and iced tea. Then I nap about 2-3 hours because I’m losing about 2-4 hours sleep daily, thence I’m catching it up during the day. After posting I binge an Asian drama or an English one on Netflix. In the evening, doing some meditation and yoga with aroma therapy and music therapy. Pretty relaxed lately.