Naiwen’s Musings

Been doing for 2 months currently ergo therapy, which is physical relaxation exercises at home. Been doing musculation and stretching exercises for my mental and physical wellness and feeling my mental and physical health state improving a lot, mainly feeling a lot happier and coping much better with SAD, stress and anxiety and depression. In fact, I haven't been depressed or panicked at all this past year, thence it's something to celebrate! Coupled with all my other therapy treatments, I'm feeling perfectly blissful with my current moment in life. Just enjoying my drama "Dreaming back to the Qing Dynasty" for awhile and chatting with friends on Discord today.

I've seen for 2 hours this morning both my psychiatrist and my therapist. Been having a few insights on DBT, humor therapy and mindfulness. I've had lunch out on a Hawaiian pizza and I've bought myself a Burt's Bees strawberry lip balm. I'm just taking a nap this afternoon because I'm exhausted after focusing for so long and being up since 8 am this morning.

Been to my favorite Danish jewelry shop this morning after my coffee at Tim's, planning my next purchase. Not doing much except binging my current drama, doing aroma therapy and listening to classical music.

Nothing much going on today, just been to my usual coffee shop, been sipping for the whole morning a dark roast coffee with 2 creams, 2 sugars and an Earl Grey tea with honey and cream. So good. Nothing is bothering today and it's my period's last and 6th day because I've had merely once in the morning so far currently a blackish discharge, but that's it, nothing to note for now. Just enjoying my current favorite Chinese drama : "Dreaming back to the Qing Dynasty" all over again. I've had a full night's sleep with a beautiful dream last with aroma therapy, meditation and music therapy.

I feel better already today with my antibiotics for the flu. In fact, it's completely gone today. Been to therapy this morning and been lunching on on a Mama burger from A&W's and an Orange Pecko tea. I've bought myself also an ambiance mist which I've sprayed all over my bed at the current. Binging "Dreaming back to the Qing Dynasty" feeling undisturbed after being asked if I were Chinese in Chinese Mandarin by an English speaking lady. In fact, I haven't even responded to her because I've deemed her crazy and thence I've been running away from her as fast as possible after buying my coffee at Tim's this morning. I've realized after therapy today, that I can indeed to choose to live my life and to respond however and whatever the heck I want and it's I've been doing lately in life without being triggered or bothered by anyone or anything else. Although, having Brahm's lullaby for violin on 24/7 might have helped me and doing always aroma therapy might have helped me too. Actually, mindfulness is just to choose whatever you wanna do with your life for the moment. To realize that suffering and struggling with life is completely from your own free will too, although according to Sigmund Freud, your subconscious is choosing your automatic and knee-jerk reactions, behaviors and responses for you. Stop letting it, that's it, that's all on mindfulness today.

I feel like I'm living in a dream today, even with others in my life. I know that I can choose to enjoy every moment in my life and that's my sole purpose, goal and meaning in life for now.